I’m Different (and Okay With It)

I’m Different (and Okay With It)

Do you ever feel like you are on the outside looking in? Have you ever felt alone when everyone’s laughing at something that you don’t find funny? Do you ever feel out of place, even in places you’ve been to a million times?

Well, you’re not alone. I’ve felt this way since elementary school.

Now, while I’ve felt different for a great majority of my life, I’ve only felt frustrated by it a few times. I can clearly remember the first time in my life that I ever realized that I was different than my peers. I was sitting in Mrs. Richardson’s music class in first grade. She was absent that day, so the substitute teacher put on a children’s musical film. Even though I can’t remember the film exactly, I remember everyone laughing at it around me. My classmates couldn’t get enough of this one-eyed, one-horned, flying purple people eater…they were doubled over, cracking up, and had their eyes glued to the screen. Continue reading “I’m Different (and Okay With It)”

Dealing with change & saying goodbye to my brother

Dealing with change & saying goodbye to my brother

It didn’t seem like a big deal when we talked about it. I mean, yeah, it was exciting that my brother was headed off to college soon, but as far as I could tell, he was still here at home with us. But the little signs of change were starting to become more noticeable. His last day at his job came and went, and that same night, we sat down to a sweet celebratory send-off dinner with our family and his roommate (+ best friend!). Then, it came time for James to pack his whole room up.

And then, he was gone. Continue reading “Dealing with change & saying goodbye to my brother”

3 reasons why you NEED to face that Tupperware cupboard (& all the other hard things in life)

3 reasons why you NEED to face that Tupperware cupboard (& all the other hard things in life)

Is there anything that has happened in your life, whether done by you or unto you, that you need to deal with? A couple of weeks ago, I realized that there were multiple situations in my life that I needed to fix. They had been suppressed for so long that I had started to forget about them, until one day I realized that if I didn’t face them, they were going to hit me in the face. God was telling me that I had someone to forgive and I needed forgiveness from someone. It was time to face it.

So, what’s your “it”?

Maybe, like me, you need to forgive someone.

Maybe, like me, you need to ask for forgiveness.

Or maybe you need to let that person explain themselves.

Maybe you need to open up your heart again.

Continue reading “3 reasons why you NEED to face that Tupperware cupboard (& all the other hard things in life)”

Humility: The Bug Spray Your Soul Needs

Humility: The Bug Spray Your Soul Needs

I’ve done some pretty cool things in my lifetime. Yeah, sure. My lifetime of seventeen years. But I’m not going to lie; I’ve accomplished some things that I’m really proud of. However, I realize that my proudest moments are the ones brought to me by God. He gave me whatever was necessary to succeed, whether it was the confidence and clarity at a speech & debate meet, the inspiration and words for an essay (or blog post :), the wisdom and knowledge for an important test, the list goes on. Think about your greatest accomplishment. How old were you? What did you do leading up to that moment? How did you feel after it happened? Who helped you achieve what you did?

But even with those accomplishments in mind, I’ll be the first to say it: I’m a mess without God. I crumble without Him. I can’t do things without His help. I am nothing without the Lord. I have come to realize that I am so human and because of that, so weak. To be honest, I can barely function correctly in my daily life when I don’t seek His face first thing in the morning. When I push praying to the side or say I’ll read my Bible later, something in my soul just falters. And so do my actions and words that follow. Continue reading “Humility: The Bug Spray Your Soul Needs”